i know the shape

of your hands because i watch them when you talk
and i know the shape of your body cause i watch it when you walk


what a cute song! that's the only adjective i can think of for it. cute. gray or blue - jaymay

heh

take everyday you ever live for granted

because one day you will have a revelation, one day you will realize what exactly it is that you've been doing that has left such a bad taste in your mouth. that day every breath you take will flow down into your lungs with magnificent ease, every taste on your tongue will give you a new favorite food, and you will bounce with each step until the cumulative power of each mini liftoff would have taken you to the moon and back.

take it all for granted and then sample the sweet smell of satisfaction!

it is 11PM

things I should be doing:

my chemistry homework
english essay
sleeping

things i am doing:

listening to peoples playlists on MySpace
thinking about reading East of Eden
reading stuff online
writing a blog


i am the most unmotivated person i know. i can bitch like a motherfucker, though!

let's dance to joy division

and celebrate the irony,
'cause everything could go so wrong
but we're so happy!



Man, this has just been a good few weeks for me. i've been in a bit of a funk for the last few months, i haven't felt bad but i haven't felt good, you know? it's all just BEEN. that's all i've been doing, BEING, and i want to live for real and live well and lead a fun life!

these last two weekends have been so fucking cool that i can completely ignore the stuff that happened in between then and ruined a lot of stuff (namely, failing chemistry. i do not understand it in the least, so there's one semester down the hole!) because i've had such a good fucking time!

i've been spending these last weekends with people that i love more than any other people in the world and i've been doing fun stuff and my plans have been following through and i've been feeling good and i've been so happy and i've been able to speak what i think and i've been able to break down a few walls of mine and i've gotten out of this terrible little crevice of shit i've been stuck in! this is magnificent!

in case you were wondering

why i drive so fast on the way home every time,


it's because the faster i drive, the sooner i get the FUCK out of that car.

you are an addiction

for which i want no 12 step plan